Till now, Home for me has been quite simple. The same home. The same house. The same old farmhouse with a big front yard and soccer balls. The same wonderful parents. The same hilarious younger siblings. The same small town and same set of closest-family-friends who share that unspoken agreement of serving as extra parents, should I ever need prayers or a hug.
Home has been a collection of summer fireflies in jars, hiking boots and dirty shoes on the front steps, too many coats on the coat rack and dishes drying by the sink. Home, for me, is a big backyard where I learned to ride my bike. The same backyard where I bruised a rib while keeping up with the neighbor-boys on their bikes. Home is a series of pets and names and dogs that are too big to call dogs, really. Dogs that feel more like siblings. Like Henry-dog. Home is a series of height-marks on the wall between the living room and the kitchen. Walls that remind us of how small we started.
Home has been those blue mountains in that same small valley and Merrie Woode family camp songs. Home has been old mountain ridge lines that I swear I could trace with my eyes closed. Home has been slippery dock-jumping, ring-neck-snake-holdin’ and porch-swing-swaying with ferns in the front yard. Home has been Lonesome Valley and spin-till-you-fall-down-happy-valley-dancing. Home consists of waterfalls and big rock faces that, for me, remove all doubt of there being an incredible Creator. A Creator and an Artist, for sure. Home has been the same family prayer spoken together, passed down through the generations. “Father, be our Holy Guest…”
Home has been 5 people holding hands around the same old dinner table, with at least one hopeful-hungry-dog somewhere close by.
Home has been defined in one word. Bates.
And right now… I am in sitting in a new home. One that is also mine. But entirely new. With fresh paint and new curtains and new little plants attempting to adjust to their new containers. Home here looks like new artwork and new gifts and lots of thank-you-notes that won’t begin to sum up my thankfulness. Home looks like Galen’s shoes by the front door and lists for what to make for dinner together. Home looks like sticky-notes left well before I woke up.
And while I will always be a Bates at heart, I get to be a King now too.
And I get to shake that deep-bone-feeling of homesickness I felt while Galen King was away. My heart has never felt homesick for a person before, till Galen. Not like that. And with that beautiful release of homesickness, I’ve recognized a new emotion. It is a gentle, subtle, quiet-tugging-homesick-feeling for all those I love at home. For those ferns and that silly dog and those hands around the table.
I’m creating a new home. Which I’ve decided doesn’t mean I ever have to give up those porch swing moments or starry nights. It just means I get to put new roots down, too.
Roots with Galen. Wherever those adventures may lead.
So, right now. I’m focusing on loving the photos on our walls and the furniture in our living room. Loving the running trails and new climbing routes and river-side-yoga escapes. Loving the way the light looks in the morning and the way that big tree sways in the window. I’m lovin’ this husband of mine and runnin on trails when the sun cools down in the evening. And while I am overflowing with happiness, I am still missing the family that brought me to this point. While I’m getting to know Tennessee, I’m still so so thankful for the Cashiers Valley in North Carolina.
With more love and more new emotions than I sometimes know what to do with,
Sara Bates King